My Birthday Prayer...

Dear God...

Be Thou my vision, O lord of my heart
Nought be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my wisdom and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart
High King of heaven, my treasure Thou art.

High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O Ruler of all.

"Introspection"

It's my birthday soon enough
No one here could know
I was born this Saturday
A lifetime ago

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

First Post of the New year 2010!

Ok... First of all... I'm not going to be all cliched and mention my New Year Resolutions... They're nobody's business but my own...

My First Post is going to be a line I noticed somewhere.... So here goes... copy paste....

" i like my women real
real skin
real breasts
real lines around her eyes
that say she has lived
show me that woman
and im interested. "

Now.... Find me a man who lives that!.....


Moving on....

I finally saw 3 idiots - the movie.... Awesome... Words fail me... I wanna kiss the author and tell him he's read my mind.... It's all that I've ever wanted to say... It's the jumble of words that have always been inside me... playing around in the deep recesses of my mind... He's taken it and slipped it into neat paragraphs and stanzas... dusted it up... cleaned it nice... and those are my sentences... what I've wanted to say and never found the words to...

In short... I'm stuck in the wrong profession...

I was born at the wrong time... in the wrong country... A time when only three choices were made available to me...

1. Science
2. Commerce and
3. Arts


Arts was always considered to be a "lowly" subject.... Science was the "best".... Since the thought of cutting up frogs and playing around with their brain matter gave me many sleepless nights... I decided to find my place somewhere in the middle... Commerce....

And as the subject promised... the middle is where I've always been...

I detest the Indian Education System that says I can't study a particular subject beyond a particular age... Who made you judge of that? Does my brain no longer function once I've crossed a time-barrier specified by your kind self?

It is for this and other reasons that I've decided... the pursuit of knowledge, education and a degree of sorts is not to be found in India.... Now... I wonder if this has always been a sensible decision... knowledge is all around me just waiting to be touched and caressed and held... It's me who has been disinterested and even lazy at times... ok ok ... most times....

It's only fitting that the time has come for me to be interested... and my calling shall find me eventually...

Who says that I should have my career all mapped out before I graduate?

I am way past graduation... and a decade down the line... I still don't know what my dream profession is... Perhaps it hasn't been invented yet... Perhaps it's waiting for me to come claim it... I shall find "me"... sooner or later.... That's a promise... not a resolution!

Claim your life! It's yours for the taking! Go on.... explore...